2007 has been a major life changing experience for me. The keyword is FAMILY. They say Blood is thicker than water. They were right. As much as i try to conceal my personal family life, it keeps coming back to me.
But as dysfunctional as my family is, its rather unique like the show Brothers & Sisters.hehe.. Welcome to my complicated FAMILY.

I had a memorable wedding reception to start with. Brought me so much tears and joy. Really appreciate the people who had turned up and made it Very Special. I saw my Indian grandfather (dad's father) after so many years. Despite the asthma and walking stick, he made it a point to attend his grandchild's wedding of whom he wasnt close with. My dad even sang us a song. Nobody has ever saw him like that before. That was rare but Special. And my maknenek sister came all the way from the uk for the wedding. hehe.. so kewl. Thanks to my bridemaids for being there for me all the way. Really helped me alot. And my hubby's grandaunt also came to our wedding of whom he said was rare cause she didnt even turn up for her own grandson's wedding. WE feel really blessed.

And xmas was just around the corner. We had another reunion again but this time its with my chinese grandma (dad's mom). My dad and stepmom had invited us round for a xmas celebration.It was really nice cause its the first time we celebrated xmas as a family. Loads of food, exchanging of gifts and i love my xmas gift from my hubby the most. He got me a digital camera with 9 megapixels as well as a samsung mp3 player to top it up. he got a gd deal apparently for all of it. I love it so much cause my camera has retired and my ipod will be going to the new car. thats all im going to reveal for now. ;p

Btw my sis and jamie got married on the 9th of dec. the same date that we had gotten married on. Congrats to them! but so kpo for choosing the same date. haha we celebrated our first year anniversary at Rasa Sentosa. Love the suite, the Big Bouquet of flowers, cake and sumptuous dinner. Me very happy! I ate so much until i wana puke. then we soak ourselves in the tub while watching the telly. Felt so rockstarish!!

okies im waiting for the big day... sHHHH
heres a pic of our family on xmas day. featuring my dad, my pinoy stepmom auntie gigi, damien my half brother, my grandma mdm tan, my mama, my hubby and meeeeee.... WEeeeeeee

ive listed a couple of things which i wanted to do and i did deliver my promises. yay!

got a job. ( no work on weekends.yipee)
got a haircut.
went to the metrosale too many times.
didnt get slippers but got a pair of sandals instead and a shoe.

i told my mom finally. disappointment as expected. but ive grown now. my life is different then it used to be.
although im still her little girl but im my own person. im a woman. i will always be a student and continue learning about life and continue making mistakes. thats who i am.

"Never explain yourself to anyone,

because the person who likes you doesn't need it,

and the person who dislikes you wont believe it."


i've been trying to find the author of the quote. if anybody knows, please let me know. thanks.

i dont wanna keep it a secret anymore. i hope we'll be able to tell her soon. i dont know how well she's going to take it but she deserves to know. its not that i hate you but ive lost my respect for you after all the things that you've said to me. it hurts me so damn much that you would actually say all of those hurtful things to my face.
you've apologised but still i dont know wether i can forgive you. you've hurt me too much and for too long.
hopefully one day ill cross over that bridge.

"Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I’m not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I’m still waiting..."

- dixie chicks.


for now,

love life. love you. love faith.

bless us all.

my mom gets worried on every 16th of the month. her dad passed away on the 16. so did her mom. recently a lady relative.2 days ago the man who had performed the prayer ritual for my grandma died. he's also a relative.
my mom's birthday falls on a 16th and sadly she's very superstitious about the number now.

talking about superstitions, my sis just adopted 2 black cats. they consists of precious (mothercat), meow meow (kid). attach below is a pic of them. i found a mother cat with 2 very small kittens underneath the car recently. kittens are pure black, the other is pure white. mothercat is a mixture of black and white. haha would love to adopt them but having 4 cats is abit too much for me. if you can find anybody to adopt the 3 would be great cause the kittens are still young and they need their mother's milk to survive. so long pussi3s!
meeyawwwwww.

havent been feeling good these past few weeks. healthwise. been having cramps, fevers and been vomitting quite frequently. gastric flu it seems. my fever keep going up and down. been checking my body for marks but thank god its not dengue. today i feel much better. although i was upset 2 days ago the good thing about it is my bestfriend, meow meow. its strange but animals somehow do understand us. its weird. im amazed. i was crying 2 days ago cause i was in pain due to my health. meow meow who was sleeping on my coffeetable suddenly woke up and looked up at me. i was sitting on the couch and so she came near me and put her paw on my lap. and then came 2 paws and she start massaging me. it hurts cause her nails keep piercing through my clothing but it was the sweetest thing ever. even throughout the sickperiod, she would come and lie down beside me whenever i watch the tv. so sweet! love you loads meow. thanks for being there for me.

on another note, i watched die hard yesterday. not a big fan of all these action movies but i must say it was really good. maggi q was hot innit with all her kungfu moves haha. wanna watch transformers soon. i think megan fox is really, really hot. i like the actor's name shia. unique and the robots looked damn awesome. cant wait. oh we went swimming at the gym yesterday and he was craving for steak. so he wanted to take me to ang siang hill to 'le bishon'. whatever the name is pardon my french. but it was closed. apparently the restaurant gives free flow of fries. so we stumbled upon jerry's bbq and grill instead. good stuff i must say. he had his steak and i wanted to have pasta but changed my mind to fish and chips. heh. the smoothies are yummy! there was a flea market around there and i got the davinci code book for 4 bucks. i wanted to read the book for a very long time but didnt have the time. good bargain. keep saying good, good good all the time. i feel good i guess. i dont wanna feel sick anymore. pass the vitamin c please, thank you.



my need list for this month.

1. job
2. haircut
3. threading
4. need to do more activities so i dont fall sick easily
5.slippers
6. go down to metro tampines for its closing down sale


thats all folks. adios!

my hubby playing beach soccer on patong beach with the locals and some swedes.



rent a bike to go round the kkk beaches. kata, karon and kamala. pillion no need a helmet. yay!



beautiful couple on beautiful karon beach. kekeke







leonardo dicaprio was here to filmed 'The Beach'. i like....



went snorkelling with the fishes..



all da munney in his potbelly!



my hubby's long lost brudder. see the resemblance!

I just got bad from Phuket for a 4days and 3 nights trip. Tiring but its all fun. Did white water water-rafting wich was crazy but awesome. elephant riding, snorkelling around phi-phi island. got to visit one of the islands where they shot the movie 'The Beach'. it was in Maya bay. we got burnt badly but the feeling was worth it. and lastly we went to see a show 'Fantasea'. if you're going to Phuket its a must see. Number one show in Thailand. Almost all the ministers and famous celebrities have gone for the show. great effects and you can see elephants riding past you, acrobatics hanging above you, chang and eng and many more. and last but not least you have to go for a thai massage. recommended! We rented a bike to go around the island. KKK beaches. Kata, Karon and Kamala beach. Equally beautiful. We saw the sleazy part of Phuket and the beautiful part of it. Its a balance.
we were told Phi-phi island was hit the worst by the tsunami. you can still see the wreckage, feel the loss but Phuket will always be Phuket. beautifully stunning despite its past. and the locals always think im local. haha even in bangkok few years back they spoke thai to me. dunkin donut! yeah but they do look like us tho. i dont mind being called a pretty local all the time. feels like home to me. ceh! (da jadi minah kothai) ill upload pictures soon. Now enjoy the All Saints video. i feeling feeling since we visited one of the islands where the movie was shot. Enjoy!

i cant help but to make comparisons. you know when you have expectations, get ready for disappointments.
when i dont expect anything, i tend to be ignorant and ignorance is bliss according to you. to me, its the little things that make a bigger picture. i like all the small little details. its important. thats why a a simple dress can cost alot. its the intricate details that makes up for it. when you have been given the best of things, you cant help but to expect more from it. a bit less and its not up to your standard. if you really love someone, you tend to give that person your everything. and that goes without asking. sincerity goes a long way. but if you claim that person is the love of your life, why do you give less than the person you had been with before. doesnt make sense. maybe its in your nature that you had given everyting before so now its time to take a rest and focus more on yourself. you dont realize what you've been doing or giving coz you're not at the receiving end.
in the past, you've been giving and giving but sadly its for the wrong person who doesnt appreciate any of it. but now since you've found the one as so you claim, why have you stop giving? did you think it is time for you to receive? how can you receive when you have not give. sacrifices is one of it. trust, time, commitment is another priority. asking for things is not sincere. you have to give from your own free will. make sure it is better than what you've been giving from before. thats the only way to determine if the person is the best of your everything.

My husband and i have officially moved. Moved to our very own apartment near tm. Im loving it. If you're around the vicinity, give me a call. I'll invite you around. Watched Spidey 3. abit late i know but its kewl. i feel like MJ sometimes. she is wearing my love-shaped locket afterall. Feeling unwell these days. anyways i was feeling bored so i took this off Chunkybitch's LJ. it was fun. ;p


RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next
button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG
NAME DOWN



IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU
SAY ?
So Beautiful - Pete Murray
at least i was trying to be nice... :)


WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR
PERSONALITY?
One Call Away - Chingy


WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
The Warmth - Incubus
trust me. i do love the warmth. ;p


HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Libertango - Bond
yes feeling libertangoish today.

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
You Should be Dancing - Bee Gees
I think i shoud.

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Basketcase - GreenDay
Do u have the time... to listen to me whine...

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Desert Rose - Sting
Think Philosophical... hmmm..

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Closer - Maroon 5

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Dont Panic - ColdPlay
Whatever it is i shouldnt be thinking about it often.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIES?
Fame - Irene Cara
"You ain't seen the best of me yet
Give me time I'll make you forget the rest
Remember my name... FAME!!"

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU
LIKE?
Through the Dark - Kt Tunstall
you were there for me when i needed u.

WAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Accidentally In Love - Counting Crows
"So she said what's the problem baby
What's the problem I don't know
Well maybe I'm in love (love)
Think about it every time
I think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it"

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW
UP?
Without You Im Nothing - Placebo
tick..tock.. i guess im still finding it out.

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE
PERSON YOU LIKE?
Real Love - Masari

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU??
Tarzacheando - Pepe and the Bottle Blondes
translation anybody? ill go ask my parents!

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
So Far Away - Staind
"This is my life
Its not what it was before
All these feelings I’ve shared
And these are my dreams
That I’d never lived before
Somebody shake me
Cause I, I must be sleeping..."

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
This Is How You Remind Me - Nickleback
Sweet.


WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Under The Weather - Kt Tunstall
"You say you feel like a natural person
You haven't got nothing to hide
So why do you feel imperfection
Cut like a sword in your side"
my hobby is that i think too much sometimes.


WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Touch the Sky - Kanye West
haha.. go figure!

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Come Fly With Me - Michael Buble
its no secret, i have always wanted to fly. i even had dreams about it.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Masa Lalu Tertinggal - Peter Pan
"Dan kini kubiarkan
Masa lalu menghilang
Dan tanpa beban
Aku meninggalkan belakang"

WHAT SONG WILL BE THE SUBJECT WHEN YOU
REPOST?
Romeo - Basement Jaxx

Allow me to tell you a story about a low-life bitch whose name begins with the last alphabet, Z. No one really knows who im refering to unless you're a close friend. Miss D you know too coz i ask you to ask your aunt wether she still works at sas.(oh the diploma of child psychology that she has is done entirely by my husband.) Want you to know, see how ugly she really is. It has been painful for me coz i havent really let go of the past. Hurts too much but God's willing everything will be aok.

Z used to be my husband's ex gf. I thought she was ordinary until she did all the crazy ass shits. the rollercoaster ride started when she couldnt handle the fact that she was ditched. Its normal for a person to go into depression when the going gets tough. they'll do things like mixing diazepam with alcohol, start cutting oneself, bingeing etc but for someone like her who thinks the world of herself... you see everyone finds her gorgeous esp angmohs and mats becoz she is afterall a minah with big boobs. ( ok my husband went out with her coz they were high skool crushes, aint a mat haha) and what do minahs usually do : spread their legs for material stuffs, free coverage of mobile and homephone bills, internet, gym membership and even sponsorship for allowance. gooo minah!!! ok thats not exactly the point. she hated my husband's family. grandma especially. so miss gorgeous Z had BLACK MAGIK done.

Husband's family was constantly fighting. One day as grandma was leaving the toilet, the toilet light cover, the one made of glass(screwed tightly) fell but luckily it missed her by an inch. It got the maid's leg instead. but thank god nothing massive happen. They have a dog and funny thing is the dog kept barking at the window, looking up at the toilet light running frantically around the house. Family finally went to see a healer. The healer lady was amazing. she pointed out who the culprit is without knowing about my husband or his history. all the while his family thought it was the neighbour whos up to mischief. BUT the healer lady did warn them to not let the bitch know that they are aware of her nonsensical goings.if she knew, she would send poor old grandma to her grave. in other words, she was going to kill her because shes a HEARTLESS, SELF-CENTRED, LOW-LIFE, MANIPULATIVE BITCH.

my husband's family played along with the game. Z had called to inform that she was pregnant. typical of a minah to come up with a storyline. she demanded my husband to leave me for the sake of a non-existant baby. One night she came to my husband's doorstep in the wee hours of the morning. and the drama unfolds.... she begged him to come back to her. demanded 500 dollars for compensation. (thats how much shes worth) i didnt know ppl with high self-esteem knew how to begged. i thought that spoils their whole rep/image. the family had to entertained her till 5plus in the morning. Every single time, when she needed the attention i had to be invinsible because we dont want grandma to die an unnatural death. to cut the story short, my dad-in-law finally told Z to f@#% off from our lives. the drama has been going on for so long. the healer lady had managed a way to send the black magik back to her or her family for sending it. as in blocking it off returning it back to sender.

there alot of things that id like to say but couldnt coz we had to keep it hush. 1, her oldest bro is an inspector in the police, 2, her 2nd sister works for the cnb. so whatever anybody says can be charged in court coz we cant exactly proove black magik on paper. and finally her father does black magik. go figure! the healer lady also mentioned that shes been sleeping around behind my husband's back while they were together and if he had ditched me to marry her she would have taken control of his life. no surprises. theres nothing anybody can do against this family. we just have to be more careful in the future. i thought black magik does not exist esp for our generation. we are living in the 21st century are we not. my mom always say god is fair. 3 years back Z's parents were involved in an massive car accident. her mom 's vagina was badly damaged. lets just put it unable to function for certain activities anymore and i dont know what the hell happened to her dad. but if whateva my mom say is true, then i wouldnt want to imagine on whats going to happen in the future. if its not in this life probably judgement day. one word bitch. REPENT!